PUTTING HUMPTY DUMPTY TOGETHER AGAIN
(The Living Bible)
One of my fondest memories as a young father was reading to our children. The acting out of nursery rhymes as we chanted them together was always greeted with special delight. Little did I know then that one of their favorites, Humpty Dumpty would become a description of my transition from being a skeptic to a believer.
You may recall the words of that simple verse:
Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall,
And all the king’s horses and all the king’s men,
Couldn’t put Humpty Dumpty together again!
I now compare the efforts of the king’s men trying to put Humpty Dumpty together again with my own struggle to put my life together again
after my separation and eventual divorce. I tried to regain wholeness through more education, self-help books, doubling my efforts at my job, deep discussions with sympathetic bartenders who listened while I cried in my beer, and other worldly pursuits. All of these were only band-aids in my feeble attempts to repair my brokenness. And in the end I concluded that the children’s poem was exactly right: “All the king’s horses and all the king’s men couldn’t put Humpty Dumpty together again!
At that point I re-discovered the One who could put me together again --- not reforming me, not rehabilitating me, or even reeducating me; but through re-creating me through the gift of the Holy Spirit. Only the King could do what the “king’s men” weren’t able to accomplish. The efforts of the “king’s men” were futile as they had not initially created me. Only the One who made me in the beginning could put me together again. I have come to believe that is what the Gospel is all about.
Is my “new” life different? Very much so! However, any of my friends or acquaintances will attest that my halo is sometimes atilt and maybe at times not even visible. Faith didn’t give me all the answers. It didn’t make me a better person than everyone around me. But trying to follow Christ does do a very important thing for me; it gives my life a sense of purpose. I confess I do not know where I will end up in my life’s journey or even how long a trip it will be. Further, I admit I am not always sure what His plan exactly is for me. However, the one thing I do know: I will strive with the aid of the Holy Spirit to serve Him in all I do until He calls me home. Amen